WITHOUT YOU, LORD

Without You, My Lord and My God,
apart, away and separate from You …
on my own and relying on my mind,
no matter how much I meditate,
regardless of how much I try to
be calm, relaxed and effortless,
to focus on nothing and release all,
even if I claim I too actually am a god -
abundant, boundless, infinite, limitless,
brimming with all possible potentialities,
yet detached from and out of synch with You…
I really am nothing and cannot manifest what
I truly desire; instead the undesired appear…

When I come to the end of myself, when
every thing I try shatters into smithereens,
and no more scheme can be squeezed out
of my worn-out brains, I must go and return
to you, Abba, Father… to be whole again
and be recharged by the One True Source!

For it is only in You, with You, through You
that I can be all You created me to be,
with the free will and the power to tell a
mountain to move to the sea and it follows;
it is only when my will, my desires, my dreams
are aligned, congruent, consistent with Your Will
that things happen without effort, without struggle.

Let me be One with You, Lord, in faith, in hope
in each moment, in every here-now instance…
in love … allow me, Father Almighty, in the name
and in the mantle of the blood of Jesus, in unity
with the Holy Spirit, to enter the chambers of Your
Throne room within me in super-consciousness and
there dwell in Your Secret Place where You are my
fortress and my refuge and where I am so close to
your Presence that I abide in your shadow… and
I cleave to You in Love…

Surely: there, Lord, You deliver me from the snare
of the fowler and from the noisome pestilence…
wickedness touches me not, no evil befalls me,
no plague comes near my dwelling; there, I can
only expect fulfillment of Your promises that
You deliver me in trouble, You honor me, and
You satisfy me with a long life; and there, it is
well with my soul! O Lord, You are my God!
Amen.

References: Psalm 91 and commentaries about it.